Zi lives in everyone's hearts!

I haven't posted in awhile. Sometimes I think I am so lucky to have been so busy with the boys, to have little down time. I fear without them how I would be doing without Zion in our lives. Zion left us after having our two boys at a time when there are few silences throughout my day to even think. I continue to smile when I see him everyday on my screensaver as big as life-I talk to him in my own way that way and send loving thoughts-that way there is never a day I don't talk or think of him. Cameron likes to talk to his picture too and pretend to throw treats....he misses that. We have been blessed with the amazing thoughtfulness of his Doctors/techs still. We have recieved another arrangement-beautiful flowers as well as a card and a book about a man/dog. Just when you lose faith in things around you there are people that go that extra mile to care and show love for you and your family during a hard time. It has meant so much to recieve these tokens of kindness and makes me less cynical about this crazy world. So awesome.

Sixteen Days Past Goodbye

It has been over two weeks since saying goodbye to our beloved Zi. I don't know if it is keeping busy that keeps me from crying or a certain peace you come to terms with and a way of looking daily at pictures and remembering good times that help. I do know that my calendar mysteriously filled up with various outings, activities and appointments....coincidence? Funny how things like the DMV all of a sudden become a priority to take care of after driving with an expired license since my last birthday (and no I didn't know til recently). So these and my boys are what make things seem somewhat normal. We talk about Zion with a smile and laugh at what he must be doing in "doggie heaven." We still run into people who ask where he is and a little sting returns, especially when they are with their dogs...walking them, throwing the ball to them.....there have been no walks for me around the neighborhood. I haven't even gone with Cameron and his bike. Still a little strange to do so without him. Maybe again sometime soon. So glad we had Zi in our lives. Like my friend Jessica said, "they really teach you lessons in how to be a better person"....they trust and love unconditionally....they forgive you in a second....it is no wonder they make such an impact on us. XO ZI!