Zion has been in my dreams several times. It is either the sad, last moments we said goodbye that seems like groundhog day and I can't escape it, or it is us having to say goodbye but in a different setting completely and I wake up and don't know if my own sobbing in my dream woke me up or if it was by chance. I was glad to wake up and hope it is always just a dream.....I then realize it is usually because Kieren woke up crying and wants to eat. I make my way through the dark house and still walk around the end of our bed where Zion always slept and then realize he is no longer there and my caution was all for not. He used to come in and check on us in Kieren's room when I fed him and made sure all was okay and went back and layed down. The last couple weeks though he stayed sleeping as I don't think he felt good.
Yesterday Cameron said he missed Zi Zi kisses and I said "so do I , so do I!" He brings him up here and there. I asked him what he thought Zi was doing up in doggie heaven and he told me ,"I think he is running and jumpin and blowing us Zi Zi kisses from up there!" How great is that! I said, " You know what Cam, I think you are right!" Wow that image made me smile more than I have in a long time! Thank god for the observations of my son.....
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