Like the title, I am coming to terms with the realization that Zion is no longer with us. I was preparing myself to accept it weeks before he was gone in a way. In the past day or two I have cried less but not because I have less love and want for him to be with us.....just more a sense of acceptance of what will be. The slightest things can trigger tears to well up in my eyes....a knowing look followed by the question, "how are you doing?"....then I am surprised to find the emotion that follows it.
I still tend to find myself impatient with those around me....like they should know what has happened and understand to what depths it has hurt me/us he is gone....or that my son at 3 should not act like a spoiled brat at times and know what degree I am feeling this loss. But how could he? So I take a step back and realize that and take a breath and let it go. Coming to terms with things can sure suck.
P.S.
What doesn't suck it the close friends and family that have been supportive. Friends that will get you good tequila to get you through a tough week-that is true friendship! I love you guys!
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